A Shamanic Journey – from Becoming the Oldest Generation – Excerpt from Part II

On Mom’s dresser live a black metal whale and a green jade fish. I carried them up the narrow staircase lined with famous paintings and small pieces of antiquities.  Black whalecrpd1

Emerging into the large open room with its plush Oriental rug covering the marble floor, I placed pieces of old Roman glass, translucent blue, in the whale’s open mouth. I arranged an altar in the center, with the candle and sage, the whale, the fish and the enameled box where the panther spirit who is helping Mom resides temporarily. Found feathers from here grace this altar too. I have lightly saged the room and have placed pillows for everyone in a circle on the Oriental rug. My elk skin drum, rattle and beaded leather medicine bag wait, ready for this ritual to celebrate Mom’s birthday.

Medicine Bag
Medicine Bag

When we gathered together, I lit the candle and called to all the directions, entreating the spirits to help us. As our intention, we asked for help and guidance for Virginia. If people wanted, I said, they could also journey for me, but I stressed that my concern was for Virginia. With that intention as our guide, while everyone lay down on their backs and covered their eyes, I picked up my drum and began to play the trance inducing monotonous beat for the journey. Finally I played the callback rhythm, bringing the journeyers back into their bodies. One by one they opened their eyes and sat up.

Marianna in the yurt
The author doing shamanic work in her yurt in California.

 

 

Excerpt from Part II: Shamanic walk on the beach

In the afternoon I took a little time off and walked Sami to the beach. The sun was shining on the water in a column that looked like a bridge to the sky. Was this what my Shamanic friend saw in her journey? In the morning the sun shines differently on the water, more sparkly and diffused and not as blinding. I asked the spirits for help again, just in case. Although, I do feel they have been helping immensely already.

Virginia walking along the beach below Nof Yam
Virginia walking along the beach below Nof Yam

 

Themes of the book

Themes of the book:

Set in Israel in the late nineties,

Dealing with My Mom’s Aging, Dying, and Death

My personal growth

  • Starting to create family relationships by learning from my stepfather who I feel is blocking them.
  • How my stepfather taught me by example to enter a room and greet people
  • Cultivating family as a way of coping with aging parents
  • Using witnesses to my writing of the events as a way for me to cope: feeling heard
  • Using shamanic rituals and experiences as a way to cope with difficult aging and death.
  • Thought provoking about choices in our lives as we age.
  • Letting go of my agenda for my Mom’s dying process
  • Growing compassion

My stepfamily’s dealing with previous death

Picture of Israel – a Westernized Middle Eastern country

  • Includes description of parts of Israel, along with current Israeli Jewish customs, all of which influenced my mother and me as well.
  • Vignettes of their friends enlarge the picture and sometimes add a comic relief quality.

Shamanism and its use in helping me deal with this part of my life